My mom called me yesterday with one purpose. To inform me that my cousin had shot himself.

He was a favorite person in my life as a child. I looked up to him (way up, since he was SUPER tall) and I learned the beginnings of a sense of humor from him. He used to take one finger and “nok” us with it. He was always teasing us and playing pranks. He was a great guy and a fantastic cousin. He had two children…

David Sanford

Dead??? Shock. Unbelief. Hurt. Confusion. Compassion. Pain. Overwhelmed.

I didn’t cry yesterday. It was too new. But I am crying today… I am hurting today. It’s so much more real today.

In times like these, I believe it’s wise to look at King David.

The Bible talks of how King David was feeling depressed but he resisted it. He didn’t sink into it or get into the pit of despair. He described how he felt, but he made a decision not to live by his feelings. He praised and trusted in God.

I know that it’s normal to go through emotionally difficult times when tragic loss occurs. But I am trusting that if I am walking in faith, I will come out of it, and better than when I went in.

As much as it hurts right now, I know that there is a new beginning in front of our family.

I am determined to trust and praise God like David did. What Satan intends for harm, God can turn around for good!

About Shannon Joy

I am a single mama with two incredible munchkins. I confuse most people and the deeper you delve into the rabbit hole, the more lost you will become. I play a lot, work a lot, learn a lot, volunteer a lot and tend to do a lot... I love my life. The past few years have been an incredible journey, full of ups and downs. Thankfully, I have made the choice to see challenges as opportunities and it makes me so much stronger than I ever thought possible. I love to write and paint and feel that being creative is my God-given talent. I am so excited to share my life and experiences with you. Although I am a diamond in the rough, I known that I am being chiseled and hewn by experiences and grace and perseverance. I love comments and feedback, so please send a little love when you can. I will always try to respond personally and in a timely fashion.
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